Journey back through these words

Dear Younger, 18-year-old Self,

As I pen down these words, I can't help but reflect on the unbelievable journey you've undertaken, particularly those days when you were wide-eyed and adventurous, on your first exchange student experience in France. The dreams you nurtured back then, fueled by the enchanting tales of women finding themselves in foreign lands, must have seemed almost tangible. I know the thrill of it, the anticipation, and the excitement of the unknown.

Now, years later, with a series of returns and experiences under your belt, it's heartening to witness the growth in your understanding of life. You've come to realize that, despite the differences in landscapes and cultures, the core struggles and joys are remarkably similar whether you're in the Philippines or France. It's a revelation, isn't it? Life back home is not the inferior existence you might have perceived it to be during those early escapades.

You've discovered that the true essence of a fulfilling life lies not just in the location but in the people who surround you. How many times did I write about these over the past three years? Your acknowledgment that the company you keep can transform the ordinary into the extraordinary is wise beyond your years. Cherish those connections, for they are truly the ones who bring beauty to the story of your life.

Yet, there's a tinge of melancholy as you recount your current read (since 2023, I must say it’s time to get this book done) Mari Andrew's words about being a Barbara, the storyteller of tales from your adventures. It stirs a realization that not everyone you meet may share your deep curiosity for the world and its stories. It's disheartening, especially in a place like France where your experiences might not always find the eager ears you hope for.

Here's a thought: Maybe your role as a storyteller is not only about the immediate audience but about the ripple effect your words can create. Remember what your friend N once told you – that one day, you won't just read these travel memoirs but write them yourself. Envision a future where a young girl, much like you once were, discovers your stories and dreams of exploring the world. Your words may be the catalyst for her adventures.

My younger self, continue documenting your experiences, your thoughts, and your dreams. Write not just for the present but as a gift to your future self and perhaps, to those who will follow in your footsteps. Who knows, your words might resonate across time and space, inspiring others to chase their dreams as fervently as you did.

With anticipation for the journeys ahead,
Your Older, 33-year-old Self